My Grief Recovery Story

My mom died in 2012 after a long 18-month battle with cancer.  My world stopped. While I have suffered other losses throughout my lifetime, losing her began my journey into the world of grief. Nothing prepares you for grief. Knowing life was short, my husband and I decided to start our own family. Six months later, we were able to tell our families (on Mother’s Day) that we were pregnant! We lost the baby two weeks later to miscarriage. We named him Liam John. Four months later we lost Celeste Ann. We lost our last little blessing a year later, Callen Michael.  Now my grief was considered complicated. I had lost my mom and all three of my children in 18 months.

I was heartbroken, angry, and exhausted. I felt like I was living in a fog and that I had to say everything was fine whenever someone asked me how I was doing.  Who really wants to talk about things that are so depressing?  I put on a mask every day and acted like I thought I was supposed to act. I was devastated on the inside and trying to keep it together on the outside. I spent the next few years going through the motions everyday trying to be grateful for the wonderful life I was living. Although I no longer practice, I have been a mental health therapist for 20 years.  Nothing I had learned or read was helping or healing how I was feeling inside. 

Then my dad died in 2018.  This time there was no moving forward. I was stuck in all this pain. My heart hurt and I was so tired.

Adrienne (fellow GRM Specialist) and I met in 2019 and shared in the loss of our children.  Adrienne trained in the Grief Recovery method later that year and she insisted that I go through the grief recovery method with her. Holidays passed and then we entered the year 2020.  No explanation needed there.

Skeptical and believing this would be just another unsuccessful attempt at happiness, I met with her and started the Grief Recovery Method. Is it easy? A quick fix? No and no! It is hard emotional work. Does it work?  I signed up for the training to become a Grief Recovery Specialist before I even finished my last session. My wish is to pay it forward to you.  Whether you choose to work with me or not, it is my hope and prayer that you recover from your loss and grief so your heart can be happy and free again.